You know you have the lowest of the low, when you're remaking the same bucket list ,that you made in 2007.
I need to visit the Sunday Market soon. I do. Life poopz. I went to a local Gym recently. It was one of those promises..."Lose weight in 2010" that I had made to myself, I guess it was about time to work on that.
How would I rate the Gym? Well it's made really nicely. The trainers there seem to be pretty okay-ish (ahem) too. I'll give it a 6.5
I don't know if it's a childish thing if I still blog, but I do.
Work is fun, I like it. I've taken an oath to never teach again. Although I was getting extremely lucrative offers. But it felt like, it was time that I stopped coming home exhausted, tired, unhappy and pissed.
The view from the office is nice. I wish I could share. I have so much to share...which I will, in the next post.
Till then, tc :)
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
Saturday, March 1, 2014
Unchained Melody
The last time i blogged was probably ages ago. A lot has happened since then. To say a few, i lost a close friend. 10th feb 2014.
RIP you. RIP.
RIP you. RIP.
Monday, September 23, 2013
Hola Back?
Hello fellow bloggers,
Some of you might be thinking that i might have stopped posting/blogging. 'Tis not so. You see, i changed my URL a long time ago because of this ugly typo i made. *shudders*. And since i have been posting, it is annoying not to get any comments on whatever that i post/write about. So, here's a leeeetle request from moi. Imma change my URL to http://cumbersome-me.blogspot.com/ and that way you can unfollow me and then follow me.
Much Love,
Al
Saturday, September 21, 2013
I Cry
And i cry because it hurts that much.
And i cry because i feel so dead.
And i cry because maybe i'm late to my own funeral.
And i cry because my God wont respond to me.
And i cry because there's no fire in my belly anymore.
And i cry because there is despair, depression and no hope around me.
And i cry. . .
And i cry because there's no love around me
And i cry because no matter what you're never right. Never.
And i cry because i'm a nobody.
And i cry because maybe they were right.
And i cry because the passion's gone.
And i cry because life's too fucking short.
And i cry. . .
And i cry because i feel so dead.
And i cry because maybe i'm late to my own funeral.
And i cry because my God wont respond to me.
And i cry because there's no fire in my belly anymore.
And i cry because there is despair, depression and no hope around me.
And i cry. . .
And i cry because there's no love around me
And i cry because no matter what you're never right. Never.
And i cry because i'm a nobody.
And i cry because maybe they were right.
And i cry because the passion's gone.
And i cry because life's too fucking short.
And i cry. . .
Sunday, September 8, 2013
There's something.
I don't remember the last time i was soo... lost? Yeap, lost.
I think sometimes the only normal thing that i ever end up doing is going to school. But i have a crazy brain, i need a lot on my plate to keep myself busy. A full load of work, for me to function normally. Most of the times i just want to lie in my bed, and calm down and rest and just not think about shit. But i don't. Probably because i wasn't built this way. Or as Ms Lady GaGa Put it i wasn't "Born This Way.
They tell me you think too much, i probably do. But too much thinking can be hazardous. But ive learnt so many lessons. I have. How do you trust someone all over again? How do you do that? How does one do that?
How does one respond to "How are things with you?" HOW?
That numb feeling is still there. Can't get rid of it. Can't. How does one do that, even? I want to go off in a sleeping mode and when i wake up i just want things to be normal. Please, God? Please? just once.
I don't remember the last time i was soo... lost? Yeap, lost.
I think sometimes the only normal thing that i ever end up doing is going to school. But i have a crazy brain, i need a lot on my plate to keep myself busy. A full load of work, for me to function normally. Most of the times i just want to lie in my bed, and calm down and rest and just not think about shit. But i don't. Probably because i wasn't built this way. Or as Ms Lady GaGa Put it i wasn't "Born This Way.
They tell me you think too much, i probably do. But too much thinking can be hazardous. But ive learnt so many lessons. I have. How do you trust someone all over again? How do you do that? How does one do that?
How does one respond to "How are things with you?" HOW?
That numb feeling is still there. Can't get rid of it. Can't. How does one do that, even? I want to go off in a sleeping mode and when i wake up i just want things to be normal. Please, God? Please? just once.
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Lights will guide you home...
I've been wanting to write forever now but i guess i had no 'real' motive to. You know.. that.. kind that emotional kind of motive.. one that suddenly pours your heart and soul of sudden strange feelings and you know that you just need to get those out.
I don't know..i mean one minute i'll feel like a frog and the next i'll be this porcupine with those sharp thingies pointing at you. But i guess that's everyone at my age (just an assumption). My school's starting from the 5th now, and two months ago i clearly remember signing a slip that said "Dear all, yaddi yaddi yada... therefore school will re-open on the 12th of August" I mean i had plans of 'nothing to do' in the now not so blessed future two weeks ahead of me. Sigh, screw you school authorities. I am in no mood to teach or more so deal with the impending drama awaiting my arrival.
Right now, i have a bad case of sniffles and a sore throat... which is good and bad. Good; because i dont have to bother talking to ppl about irrelevant things and bad because most friends of mine have forgotten what i sound like. :( #TheLife
But over all Summer wasn't so bad, i made a friend recently who literally forced me out of the house everyday..and you know how parents get when things like that happen, "kaun hai? kaisi hai? kya karti hai woh?" I mean dude? Had hoti hai -_- But i guess it's their job or whatever.
It's that time of the summer, when people are leaving. My best of friends did not come this summer, which was slightly heartbreaking; more for them i'm guessing cuz they have their whole families here. In other news my film school might not be continuing, i mean that's a first- at least for me. While life goes on.. i cant help but think about all the money that i put in to it.
Im reading a Danielle Steel novel right now, called "Now and Forever"...it's about a husband and wife who face first world problems and don't know how to deal with it -_- I mean "yawr like kaisay kartay how aap yawr" Still, a good read and obviously better than Twilight!
My sister's getting married in October, same time i'll turn 22. Maynn i don't feel so old :/ (I hope to stop sneezing, seriously). Can't wait for Ramazan to end, it's making me incredibly weak and my fat pay check.
..Colplay's making so much sense right about now.. dayum
Cheers,
more later!
I don't know..i mean one minute i'll feel like a frog and the next i'll be this porcupine with those sharp thingies pointing at you. But i guess that's everyone at my age (just an assumption). My school's starting from the 5th now, and two months ago i clearly remember signing a slip that said "Dear all, yaddi yaddi yada... therefore school will re-open on the 12th of August" I mean i had plans of 'nothing to do' in the now not so blessed future two weeks ahead of me. Sigh, screw you school authorities. I am in no mood to teach or more so deal with the impending drama awaiting my arrival.
Right now, i have a bad case of sniffles and a sore throat... which is good and bad. Good; because i dont have to bother talking to ppl about irrelevant things and bad because most friends of mine have forgotten what i sound like. :( #TheLife
But over all Summer wasn't so bad, i made a friend recently who literally forced me out of the house everyday..and you know how parents get when things like that happen, "kaun hai? kaisi hai? kya karti hai woh?" I mean dude? Had hoti hai -_- But i guess it's their job or whatever.
It's that time of the summer, when people are leaving. My best of friends did not come this summer, which was slightly heartbreaking; more for them i'm guessing cuz they have their whole families here. In other news my film school might not be continuing, i mean that's a first- at least for me. While life goes on.. i cant help but think about all the money that i put in to it.
Im reading a Danielle Steel novel right now, called "Now and Forever"...it's about a husband and wife who face first world problems and don't know how to deal with it -_- I mean "yawr like kaisay kartay how aap yawr" Still, a good read and obviously better than Twilight!
My sister's getting married in October, same time i'll turn 22. Maynn i don't feel so old :/ (I hope to stop sneezing, seriously). Can't wait for Ramazan to end, it's making me incredibly weak and my fat pay check.
..Colplay's making so much sense right about now.. dayum
Cheers,
more later!
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
Summer's here?
I think feelings are like your skin, they eventually peel off. Whether its love, hate, anger, disappointment or even happiness. They always peel off and similar to skin, they are replaced by new ones, love is soon replaced by hate or sometimes even nothingness. I feel like i have been lying in this pool of nothingness for the longest time now. It's not the best and its not the worst. It makes you feel.... nothing. Can't complain.
Right now, if i want, i can totally get out if bed, make a list of things to do this summer, work on my short term and long term goals and achieve something. But i am so tired right now. I am. Not exhausted, but im just so sick of being this money minting machine that the entire thing has become redundant, monotonous and boring really. Its almost been a week since i got off work and i spent all that time with ppl who i promised hanging out with. I felt like it was a debt i was paying off. And these are real, actual people that i am talking about, and as i met them i kept on doing that imaginary calculation thing in my head that my mom does when she's buying her groceries. (ohmygod i get it from ma.). So it was pretty much like
1xwz
2 pqr
3shkkd
4mmll and lsks
5 opbnek
6 joxk, ankd, ajkdd's baby
No.5 and No.6 are friends who are leaving soon. So there's another formality there.
Yipee. Here's to Summer 2013!
Cheers
Right now, if i want, i can totally get out if bed, make a list of things to do this summer, work on my short term and long term goals and achieve something. But i am so tired right now. I am. Not exhausted, but im just so sick of being this money minting machine that the entire thing has become redundant, monotonous and boring really. Its almost been a week since i got off work and i spent all that time with ppl who i promised hanging out with. I felt like it was a debt i was paying off. And these are real, actual people that i am talking about, and as i met them i kept on doing that imaginary calculation thing in my head that my mom does when she's buying her groceries. (ohmygod i get it from ma.). So it was pretty much like
1
2
3
4
5 opbnek
6 joxk, ankd, ajkdd's baby
No.5 and No.6 are friends who are leaving soon. So there's another formality there.
Yipee. Here's to Summer 2013!
Cheers
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