Thursday, May 14, 2015

I'm going to stop now...

It's okay to have one bad day or even screw up. But when it becomes a habit, it becomes slightlyyyy worrisome. I get irritated and frustrated by little things, like unfairness, unjust treatment of ordinary people that sometimes clams me up, but it's also things like labeling others. How do I deal with this? I can stand up, but i want to know if it would actually make a difference.

My behaviour really surprises me sometimes, I mean my entire life, due to the life experiences that I have had, and the kind of people I have dealt would think that I would've gotten use to this by now... but i haven't

Friday, May 8, 2015

Cluless recluse

Yes, it's been 6 months. Yes, we haven't been talking. But the part that really makes me L.O.L is when I end giving pretentious advice to newbie heartbreaks. But you know what has really happened due to this whole, "not being in a thing that makes no sense and is a nonsense thing?" is that i feel like i see life slightly clearer now. I pay attention to myself. That constant headache that i'm hiding something is gone, or that guilt that i was constantly made to feel everyday about 'not caring enough' isn't there. After all, I am 23. I change on a daily basis. There are new interpretations, new lessons learned everyday for me. I am as clueless as one can be. I am easily fascinated by the little things in life and yes i've had really weird phases...phases of crying all the time, to trusting weird people, being paranoid and just being in plain fits of laughter.

I feel like now i have the time to do shit, I actually like/enjoy, for example, annoying people. oogling at strangers, mimicking kids and similar stuff, y'know?